feliz cumpleanos?

i forgot to mention that i brought up to amy that i wanted to take a trip to mexico for my 40th birthday- since it's in july and i'm sure she'd need time to make the arrangements before going there. at first she tried to gaslight me into believing i just took a trip to boston this year and i corrected her and said that i looked at facebook and the pictures were taken in 2025.. so that's LAST year and i used to take trips every year when brian was my trustee. then amy said, "okay. i'll check with brit about a trip there." so zen briefly looked at his cell phone for sights in mexico because i told amy i wanted to go to chichuachua, since i remember that city being on my mexican birth certificate about where i was born. during our boston trip, brit told me that i should look at actually taking trips to places sometimes where it's not just for looking for housing.. this would qualify as one of them trips. even though i'm sure grump's ass will attempt to deport me but i DO have joint citizenship, along with a damn passport, and valid american citizenship. it'd just give me more of a reason to live further away from my mom if i did get deported- that'd be one of the pro's along with universal health care. although i'm not really fluent in spanish yet- so i'd probably be lost for a while but i remember jose telling me that i'd understand it better if i were surrounded by spanish speakers.. obviously.. i'd prefer to live somewhere by CHOICE though- not because i'm forced there by citizenship. i always try to see the good in situations to make it more bearable though. got me through the shitholes i've been previously forced to live at (not ALL the apartments were bad.. but i had to deal with roaches and mice during my very first apartment). this current apartment isn't that bad and the previous apartment on marshall ave. wasn't that bad but i had to sign a lease for that apartment- so i HAD to live elsewhere after that one. i remember someone bringing up to me how i'd need to find a travel pca with a passport and i'm positive that brit has a passport because i remember asking her if she'd go to canada with me and if we needed a passport to go there and she said that she had a passport and she thought they'd require a passport there. so i seriously doubt that should be a problem. fredrick and i didn't get myself a passport for nothing. it's time i put it to use even though i'm pretty sure i'd be okay with my dual citizenship because mexican police shouldn't be anal over someone who looks like them going in and out of their country. probably one of the only times where my skin color will actually benefit me (along with the fact that i don't burn as easily as the regular caucasion person). i also haven't been back to mexico since i was actually born- so it'll be a moderately new experience for me.